I just got home, opened my email and found out that if it works out for me to attend GW (with my luck Philip will have found out about the assignment today and we are stationed in timbuktu), my faculty advisor is the crazy scary mean guy who interviewed me. SERIOUSLY?!?!?!??! Of the bajillion faculty - I was matched with someone who mortifies me?!?!??!
Lindsey bringing me cheer with "The Lindsey Fun Show" before she was made to go up to bed. Sounds like something I would have done at that age. . . I could sure do with going across the street and having Lindsey and the rest of the Gidlow clan cheering me up tonight. . .
I'd really like to hit fast forward on the next three months. I know that's horrible to say but I want my husband home, I want to know where we're going next (or possibly be there!!!!) and I want to see the light at the end of the tunnel at work. I'm just feeling pressed on all sides right now. . . I'll keep trying to cling to 2 Corinthians 4. . .
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, so that the surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves; 8we are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing; 9persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.
I'm just being real with you though. . . I'm struggling not to feel a small bit of despair these days. I'm worn out. [Okay, maybe not so much despair - I'm not trying to be a drama queen - but I'm definitely feeling perplexed and somewhat struck down.]
4 comments:
Oh you girl! I wish I lived across the street from you! My second BF is moving on Thursday and I was just taking a shower and thinking, "I WANT TO MOVE TOO!!!" I hate when friends leave. It leaves me despondent. But, back to you - gosh. I understand, in a way, how you feel and I just wish I could hug you, talk with you, be a friend while your husband is gone. It really sucks to be apart on days like these. And it's not bad to want to fast forward the next three months... I'd want that too! Praying for you not to get stationed in Timbuktu!
So sorry about the tough days, wish I could hurry the next three months along. Love you, praying for each day to be manageable.
Good scripture reference. Here's more from the end of that chapter:
"For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory. While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temproary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."
I TOTALLY understand what youare going through! Use your blog to encourage others going through the same thing. That helped me. Actually, I should say is currently helping me. :)
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